Quantum Love

Can we understand the nature of love in accordance with time?

What if we operated outside of time in how we loved? What if someone could be aware of affection they have before or after the fact?

What if one could feel the passion of their hearts from the future or their past constantly?

This is something I've been mulling over today as I consider some advances in my personal life. There's all kinds of interesting people in the world, as I am aware now, and while I'll always have the affection of the Dragonfly, my affection for the Raven is currently limited to being a supportive friend, confidant, while just leaving the option for more later. The Raven's heart is drawn toward a brighter relationship, I feel, and this is for the best. And yet, still, my passion for her is as great as it ever could be, or would be.

This, of course, isn't that strange. People continue to love others long after relationships end (and, sometimes, straight into the beginning of another). The curious part is how I've met the Rose, and how I find myself seeing that there is a chance that affection might blossom there (to excuse the pun). This isn't to say that I've fallen in love with the Rose, as we've just started talking, there are just elements here and there, things that I can see leading to that as a possibility. This is what got me thinking about the echoes of love.

Could we, theoretically, feel the echoes of love as possibility through time? Could certain aspects of our mental existence, our emotional existence, have a progression outside of linear time? Could we know love from our futures, before we've fallen in love?

In some ways, I think this is possible. I feel everything as potential, myself, rather than actualities. I live in the moment, but I plan based on possibility. When I fall in love with someone, I fall in love with who they are, deep down inside, not the person they've insisted on showing me day in and day out. I strip away the outside carefully and slowly to know them within their hearts, their minds. Sometimes, during this process I find echoes of emotions, future imprints of hate or love, and they shape how I see someone subjectively. I still find objective truths about them to be sustaining, but I'll fall in love before falling in love, or grow distrustful of someone who I feel those echoes of hate from.

It worries me at times, these feelings I get, since I seem to fall in love very quickly with someone or that I seem to have found reason to dislike them not long after meeting them. I wish I could explain my penchant for understanding human behaviour, but it's simply a trait that I have grown into since I was young.

Hopefully as my life goes on and I get further into adulthood, I'll find answers to these questions. Or, at least, comfortable assertions about who to believe...my heart and my mind or my friends and my enemies.

To your grace and enlightenment,

The Magus